Losing It All - Yet Gaining It All
By Jamestown Kentucky
Deborah, I came across your website while searching the internet for information on marriage restoration.
I will give you a brief overview of my situation. I am in the 13th year of my 2nd marriage. My husband, is a wonderful Godly man. I, however, have been far from the Proverbs 31 woman. I am the mother of 3 girls (a 22 yr old and 16 yr old twins) from a previous marriage. My husband has been basically the only father figure for my girls for the past 14 years.
I have recently become honest with my husband and accepted Christ after faking it for almost 30 years. I played the piano at church, sang in the choir, taught Sunday School, lead VBS, chaired numerous committees and all the other things that are expected of a deacon's wife. However, I was as lost as lost can be. I became involved in an affair, was abusing prescription drugs and was lying to everyone in my life. I recently truly accepted Christ and REPENTED of the sins of my life that I had only ACKNOWLEDGED a million times in search of salvation. I confessed all of my sins to my husband and we are currently separated.
My twins are now living with their father (with whom they barely have a relationship), my oldest is living with her grandfather and I am staying with my mom. In the course of my honesty, I also admitted to taking money from my employer and subsequently lost my job but now have a new job. I have a history of severe childhood sexual abuse by my father, my brothers and my babysitters grandson. I am actively seeking counseling and healing from those demons and am now 2 months clean of any prescription drug. I am also participating in Celebrate Recovery (a Christ centered recovery program) that is amazing for healing. I am in the process of repaying my previous employer and have no money but would certainly love to read your book.
I do believe that through Christ my marriage will be restored. My husband and I communicate everyday...not always positive but all communication leads to healing. I do not have a blog or a website but would certainly review your book on Amazon.com or any other website you would like. In the alternative, if I could receive a copy of your book now, I would gladly send payment to you for the cost of the book when I am "on my feet". I am on a road to recovery and healing and restoration of my marriage. God's promises are so true and I have seen great things happen as a result of my time in prayer and study.
The fabulous thing about my new job is that I am working 3rd shift as a 9-1-1 dispatcher in a small town that rarely has any activity after midnight. Therefore, I spend 8 hours a night in bible study and prayer. God has an awesome way of working that out, doesn't He?
I am excited about what God is going to do and about the healing that is going to take place not only in my life but in the life of my mother (who is going to find Jesus through this experience - I am heaping coals on her - scrubbing her toilet, cleaning her house, I even washed her feet and prayed for her but she thought it was just a pedicure LOL) and for my marriage and my children. I am striving to live pleasing to God because I truly believe 1 John 3:21-22...if I keep His commands and do what is pleasing to Him, He will grant whatever I ask. I am praying that God cultivate within my husband the heart of Hosea and relying on Him restoring the years of the locust for our family.
I am just so excited and filled with hope! This is, by far, the most difficult time of my life but I am happier and more at peace than I have ever been before!!! Sounds strange, doesn't it?
I will provide to you my mailing information. If you do not desire to share the book with a review of Amazon or payment being sent to you later, I certainly understand. If you do agree, that is fabulous and I will openly and honestly review the book. No matter the response to this request, I will pray diligently for your ministry.
Blessings to you,